29.4.09

gayest thing ever

lots of stuff happened lately...
i've already lower my position in order to make things better...
but the reply pissed me off even more...

wut the heck does this suppose to mean...

"Go ahead, Be a jerk, Like I care at all."

wtf is that???

i've lower my position while i did nothing wrong
and now? wut the fuck is that person thinking????

i've agreed to take the option that was given to me with wut that person said before
but now, sayin that im a jerk???

if that person is gonna do that, then, i guess, i hav no choice but to take actions
i can feel my anger has boosted up again

i just cant take it anymore...

17.4.09

untitled

what if I say,
"for the sake of protecting the beloved ones, you sometimes should respond to hatred in order to unleash wrath to your enemies"?

Today, I went to library and borrowed the famous "the art of war". The more I read it, the more my minds come to these questions:
- What are the main reasons of wars?
- is war caused by dissatisfaction and greediness of humans?
- is war because they want more than what you have?
- how should I prevent loss from war if it has to happen?
- how to make this world peaceful?

I guess I came to answer some of the questions.
- as long as there are people who love winning and gaining more than what others have, there will be wars.
- as long as there is love, there will be hatred. Both of them are inevitably standing together, seperated only by thin line. When you love some people too much, you might as well turn into an avenger when they are hurt by others.
- to prevent wars, people offer peace to others. But, Homer had stated before, a wise man prepares for war while in peace. So, does it mean that offering your enemy a peace is actually preparing for the war in the future?

oh well, too many questions to answer, I guess I will go back to reading for now...
war and its philosophies, they are just way too sophisticated and complicated
they show me how people struggle when they are in despair and in between the seperation gate of life and death. While people struggle, they advance to the next stage of intellegence. If they can't, they die and perish away.

The art of war itself, I call it the lifesaver and deathbringer
lifesaver to the one who masters the knowledge taught by it
deathbringer to the one who doesn't possess it or master the knowledge

14.4.09

end of the semester...

Hell yeah, at last this semester ends
for people who still have exams
I wish good luck to all of you !!

Now is the time to slack off for awhile
time for blogging
well, even with particularly nothing in mind right

talking about academic stuff
I think that I have become a better student this semester
even though I haven't given out my best yet
slacking off sometimes
but at least now I am an average student
*basically saying my grades are tight to the classes' averages

I will definitely do better next semester
my spirit won't fail me now huh ?

somehow, I think that now I can at least relax
relax in the way that I don't need to worry about my performance
I used to worry about my grades and I ended up blaming myself

but now I can say,
"no matter how bad my grades will turn out to be from now on, I don't care"
why?
"because I know I have at least tried my best"

I guess I just don't care about the surrounding when I know I have done my best
that's just my nature
heh.............

8.4.09

superstar will be back tomorrow

.......... studying @DP
for the first and last exam that I have for this semester
all I need is study tonight
no zombies, no shinra armies
just study.........

and as I have promised,
superstar will be back on form tomorrow
basically saying
soccer time BIATCH !
I still can't believe liverpool 1-3 chelsea

damn, most of friends will go back home in summer
hmm...... let's see how boring this summer will be
have fun to whoever going back home
I am here taking GIS project and philosophy classes
wish me luck