awakening (feel my vibe)

school stuffs haven't been going well lately..
parents went home today..
here I sit in the lab again..
listening to "element of life"

cramming..
aiming for perfection..
while knowing that perfection is such a disease..
that being perfect is another dead end to improvement..

stuffs haven't been going well lately
body's tired
mind's beat
too many activities

assignments are tons
exams are not waiting
now is the time
to get the logic back

awakening of mind
releasing vibes
(have to study 13x)
this week is hell
straight 4 duedates
as I have just won 649

feet please don't fail me now
let me walk this path
the path of craziness
to the destination sunshine
amen

Why So Serious

Why would i be mad?
If people around me would be affected.
Why would I cry?
If all they do is to pity me.


Therefore I smile,
To hide the pain that I took,
To hide the truth that should not be told,

And........

To forget her.


I can do this alone.

Pain You Can't Fight

Oh god, won't show me,
directions to the cemetary.
This storm's full of rage, and won't seem to back up off me.
Though I need to escape, I need to proceed,
It's too damn cold, my heart's in a freeze.
When you're pissed you've got fire,
In a storm? it's a tease.
Still I have mercy,
And rest in false peace.




It's so much easier to walk the path of pieces, yet so much harder to walk the path of peace. Bet some of you didn't know that.

Dogs...

A puppy was brought to a small village to his new owner.
It wiggled his tail to everyone in the village. He was always happy and appreciated the fact that he was loved by the owner and the people.

He would follow the owner wherever it may be, in the rain or even in the snow. He was the happiest dog in the world.

They say Dog's lives revolve around us. It is said that even in pain, as long as we're there, nothing else mattered to them.

Time passed by and the dog aged.
As shocking as it sounds people in the village wanted to eat him now that he is fully grown.
Shocking thing is that even the owner took part of this cruel act.
He smacked his head making him uncautious.
He then threw him into a boiling pot of water.

...

But from the hot water the dog woke up.
From the shock he fought his way back out of the pot.
He then saw his owner standing there with the bat.

The dog wiggled his tail and nothing else mattered...he was happy

*Dogs are more loyal than humans. I wonder why people treat them like trash.

Think again

Somewhere in this world there is a young man who lives with his mother. He carries a rare disease which holds a shape of round tumor-like bumps all over the body and face. He was only in his 20s. It was even hard to tell the gender of that young man due to the severe symptoms.

His spinal cord was out of place making him disabled to do everyday chores. As he walked with his slouched back he looked really discomforted and was in pain as he took his steps.

I do not know the name of this disease but it is very rare, and unfortuantely he has received this rare disease from his mother.
She too was suffering by the same disease. She says it hurts her more than anything to see her son inherit her rare disease.

What do we wish for in our 20s? I wish for good grades, getting rich, meeting a good girlfriend...wanting to have nice things etc.. Im sure most of people agree.

This young man had a different wish.

"I wish one day, I could carry my mother on my very own back and walk to places with my own strength"

This is a true story,
So what are you complaining about?
We tend to forget that there are people out there who are in much worse condition than us. We always think that our problem is the greatest problem in the world.
So lets think twice and appreciate what we have and let us not take anything for granted.

-X