a walk to the future

seems like I had been talking and rewinding about the pasts
the past was sweet yet bitter (same thing as the bitterness in the coffee adding 1 spoon of sugar)
most of the times, everything to me had been in the form of "was"
but, after thoughts and events, now I start to see changes in me
as time passes by, I know how important is one second to me

I have started to forecast
what I want to become
what I want to achieve
not about who I was
but who I am going to be

so many ideas and thoughts also inspire me
for instance, "if one hand can't hold the weight, then I just need to use both hand"
similar to saying "if I can't see clearly of where I am heading, then I just have to concentrate more"

I am living in the present
not in the past anymore
not yet future
I start to see how many jumping stones that I still have with me right now
I can choose among those 8 ways carefully
(hint: a piece in chess that has 8 options of the next move)
one single mistake may blow off everything

now, I have to build myself
stronger and tougher
faster and more furious
I am not "that" young anymore
I now have people in back that I have to protect
and for these, I will keep strieving
struggling, repairing myself
looking forward to the future of mine

sigh......
I guess that's the price of getting older
but I just have to do it, true?
after all, I am -jqL_ the superstar
I have to become model to the new generations
(puke***)
in my name I trust