aeraxciaz

what about wondering? curiosity?
is it a good trait?
because the prosperity that humans are enjoying today are because of curiosity leading to new discoveries
or is it a bad trait?
because they say: "curiosity killed the cat"

I have always been curious ever since young
But, many times, I have to learn many things by myself too
and
many times parents put restrictions on their kids
of what they should learn and what they should not learn
same as
medias control what getting into our ears

Is it wrong if we defy our parents restrictions and learn what we are not supposed to learn?
is it wrong if we want to know more about what medias restrict us from knowing?
Should the restrictions be the barriers of learning/getting more experiences?
or I could say,
Should I blame the forbidden fruit?
Or should I question even more about why human being so curious?

Before I blame the forbidden fruit, please let me ask myself:

(A) is it because Adam and Eve had eaten the forbidden fruit
then the curiosity trait was passed down to us? I mean, is the curiosity trait came from the forbidden fruit?

or

(B) is it human's trait from the very beginning and forbidden fruit was not the cause?

Let's say A is true, then I have no more wonder, and I will stop asking
but if B is supposedly true, will I become even more a sinner because I will question more?
something like, why the forbidden fruit was placed there if it was not meant for human to eat it?
many many questions
as, should I keep following their rules for the rest of my life? or should I start walking by myself and create my own rules?

but probably I would not get the answer to this question
during my lifetime
then, because of this, should I stop questioning? since the probability of knowing about the forbidden fruit is very unlikely?

or should I keep asking? defying? striving?
anyway, too many questions, head's hurt,
damn, I just want a simple life
but I don't even understand why this mind of mine
never stop asking
and defying

and again

is it a good trait?
or is it a bad trait?

mother nature, please let me stuck in this question, so I might stop asking about other else.. thank you