dawning

so many things happened this semester
I still can't let go of these thoughts
instead of studying, I have been engulfed with many wars
battling others
battling myself
instead of studying, I have been fooling around with my life
I can't help remembering that
if I can finish these 4 years, then I'm set for life

so many things, so many things
here I am sitting
singing and rapping myself
writing these lyrics down
to help forgetting the mess that I've made

here I am cleaning my closet
redeeming myself
trying to calm down mind that keep asking questions
"why me? why me? why me?"
"why is it always because of you
I have to be in so much trouble?"
"is it my fate?"

if I say "if I can turn back time",
does it mean that I regretted what I've done?
one of my philosophy, no regret
is it being questioned?
why does every of my own philosophy that I've made
betrays me one by one?
they are all dawning

ireove, trust me, I can do better than this
stay with me
bear with me
lemme show you
the miracle

"in the name of moon, I will punish you" -----> what the hell does this have to do with this post?
damn, apparently, I want to get out of here ASAP as well